12./ Twenty quid kindness
So today I did something I’ve never done before. I usually give the odd bit of change to homeless people, buy them a coffee but donate my time to charity. For some reason this chap was different. I felt a connection. Piss wet through and frozen Sat outside Sainsburys I gave him some change but entered into conversation with him. Asking about services he could or couldn’t access. Told me his story, yes he’d had alcohol misuse issues after he lost his job and then his wife left him…about how now, kids kicked him and spat on him..he only needed £20 to get a bed for the night and the owner might keep him on. The last time he’d been there 28 days paying lodgings by doing oddjobs. Heart strings pulled, cash exchanged hands. My last £20, though I didn’t tell him that. At least I have somewhere warm to sleep. He sobbed like a baby when I gave it to him. ” You have no idea what this means, how much you have helped me.” And gave me a hug. Yet in the back of my mind I was thinking, “Would he do it or was it a rouse to get money for whatever alcohol he needs? A familiar old story heard by regular passers by?” Is it any of my business once money changed hands What he does with the money? I would Probably get smashed out of my face to keep warm or block out the hideousness of being on the street. Well I rolled the dice and the odds were in his favour. I didn’t see him for a few days but soon enough he was back in his spot crying then when I spoke he realised it was me he stopped saying ,’I’m hungry just trying to get enough for pizza.” He’d got his place for a few days looked a bit cleaner but thanked me again saying,” You don’t know what you’ve done for me. Just to have a bath! To go the toilet on a toilet! Thankyou!” Look excitedly showing me his keys. I smiled knowing I’d done someone good. My boyfriend saw him a week, after same spot same story. But just goes to prove the hamster wheel existence of life that these people are on. Indeed which we are all on, in this rodent race. It makes me wonder what would happen, if we all just got off.
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